i have to be upfront about this:
i am in love with you and it has never
been this way before. not that this is news
nor should you be alarmed
but when i say this i mean
that a day is too long to be without you

and a day without you is like an apple
looking for its tree, a wheel lost
from its bicycle, that for all the good
that i could do, i would be too lost
without a home and like a bird
that could never land, even just wind
will exhaust me and eventually
blow me away

that lack burns slow and deep
and similar to how i could see
centuries of a life with you, i see a millenia
of one spent tracing cracks on the sidewalk
peering under ladders and sifting
through broken mirrors where i search
for the good luck that people forfeit
in exchange for the bad kind
hoping that it might lead me back to you

so what i am trying to say
is that i thought i lost you for good;
is that no one will ever touch me
quite as lovingly or quite as sweetly;
is that i refuse to cross thresholds without you
whether it be the next room or the next country;
is that "you are the only one for me"
also just means "i was never for anyone else";
is that i thought i lost you for good
and i cannot believe how selfish i am

but
i am in love with you and it has never
been this way before
and it will never be
this way again


i love you forever baby boo x